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My reality and how I knew something wasn’t right.

I know I am mentally ill, but I am very aware of who I am and if my reality wasn’t real. I think the difference between me and most mentally ill people is my awareness of self and others. I try to see through other peoples eyes. If they reacted its real if they don’t it can’t be real. I knew at the age of ten something was not right. I was at school class had just started and my best friend walked into the class I said “Hi Sarah!” and my class mates said who are you talking to Amanda? I looked at them and something clicked I thought what? Omg they can’t see her or hear her. She’s not real? I asked the teacher if I could go to the office she said yes when I got there I broke down crying and freaked out. They called my mom she came and got me I told her mom Sarah isn’t real how can she not be real mom? My mom held me tight and said Amanda you live in a different world then most people do and so you see it different. I don’t know what I can do for you that will make this go away.

I can truly say that I was smart enough to see the truth at the ago of ten, when the man from The Beautiful mind saw it at an older age. I now know I can change the way I see or saw my realty by changing the way I thought about reality. Look through the looking glass Alice and your see the truth but step through the looking glass and your live the truth. 

About Amanda Shelton

I write, and I do digital art. My life is never too boring, I think too much for my life to be nothing but interesting. I always put myself into my writing, so if you want to know how I think then just read my poetry, and short stories. Also I am brutally honest, and I love everyone unconditionally. No one is a stranger to me, I will treat you like I treat everyone else, like family.
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