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My reality and how I knew something wasn’t right.

I know I am mentally ill, but I am very aware of who I am and if my reality wasn’t real. I think the difference between me and most mentally ill people is my awareness of self and others. I try to see through other peoples eyes. If they reacted its real if they don’t it can’t be real. I knew at the age of ten something was not right. I was at school class had just started and my best friend walked into the class I said “Hi Sarah!” and my class mates said who are you talking to Amanda? I looked at them and something clicked I thought what? Omg they can’t see her or hear her. She’s not real? I asked the teacher if I could go to the office she said yes when I got there I broke down crying and freaked out. They called my mom she came and got me I told her mom Sarah isn’t real how can she not be real mom? My mom held me tight and said Amanda you live in a different world then most people do and so you see it different. I don’t know what I can do for you that will make this go away.

I can truly say that I was smart enough to see the truth at the ago of ten, when the man from The Beautiful mind saw it at an older age. I now know I can change the way I see or saw my realty by changing the way I thought about reality. Look through the looking glass Alice and your see the truth but step through the looking glass and your live the truth. 

About Amanda D Shelton

Welcome Bat Brat's. I am the author of this page. I write poetry, I also create digital art. I am disabled I suffer from high functioning autism, cellular nerve damage, Dystonia, and Muscle dystrophy. My writing is a reflection of my thoughts and experiences. I blog because I love writing. I write because it's the way I learned how to express myself. I have difficulty relating to people. Poetry makes it possible for me to learn how to communicate. I have been told I am exhausting to speak to because I have a lot to say. My IQ is above 200. I was diagnosed at the age of 33 with high functioning autism and Autistic Savant Syndrome. I make friends very easily because I don't have boundaries and I am not shy. I am very honest and welcoming. I love people and animals. I always look forward to writing in my blog Gothic Realms | Dark Visions In The Night. I hope to see you there. Feel free to leave a comment and like my posts. Until we meet again I will be waiting eagerly and patiently.
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